The pain is coming in waves… like contractions during birth… These waves are crashing together over my head, drowning me… again and again… I don’t know how to hold space for myself. Holding this pain, cradle it in my arms, so I can heal… I find it overwhelming, trying to hold it all in instead……
Schlagwort: acceptance
Still dancing
My feet are touching the ground. Again and again. Stomping, sliding, full of joy and full of sorrow. My grief has not fully left me, yet. I feel myself vibrating with the music. I can also feel the other dancers‘ energy around me. Finally, I settle into my movement and rhythm… I am writing this…
Coming home, taking root
Every couple of weeks I am meeting with three other women. Through their eyes I am learning more about myself, who I really am and also, who I used to be in my previous life. For many people this might sound crazy but I carry memories that are not from here. In my old life…
Heart Wide Open
This week I am finishing off some of my classes at the studio I have been teaching at since spring. Starting January I am venturing out and offering two of my own courses. However, I wanted to do something special in my last classes and suggested to take them through a guided meditation. I love…
Change is in the air
My one and only face reflected multiple times in a life-sized kaleidoscope… from a yogic perspective I find it fascinating that I have just the one face but fill out all these different roles. I am not sure how much of my inside going-ons are really being reflected on my expression but no matter how…
One step out of the door
Yesterday we dropped off our seven year old son together with his best buddy for his first summer camp. One whole week away from home. When we left, he was kneeling on the floor getting all his Lego out. Totally absorbed in playing. He seemed happy enough. Me – that was another story. I felt…
This is it… This was it…
It is done. I held my first yoga class as a teacher this Monday. Oh I was so nervous. My heart beat was right there in my throat while I was trying to chant an OM that did not reveal how I felt… I made it. No big blanks. No injured students that had to…
Resurfacing
After a busy fall, it is the home stretch to Christmas. It feel like forever since I took the time to gather a few thoughts here. I did write some notes here and there, but the words then seem to not reflect where I am „tunneling“ at the moment. My trip to Vancouver was great….
Some days everything works out just fine
The sun is peeking through the leaves overhead. I can feel the fall air on my skin. The voices of other people in the park are dropping away, blending into the background. I am early for my yoga class. A rare occurrence. I had the day off and thought it would be a mad dash…
mehrlebenskunst. 