letting go

The pain is coming in waves… like contractions during birth… These waves are crashing together over my head, drowning me… again and again… I don’t know how to hold space for myself. Holding this pain, cradle it in my arms, so I can heal… I find it overwhelming, trying to hold it all in instead……

Erschütterung

Manchmal, verstehe ich die Welt nicht mehr. Manchmal, denke ich, dass ist ein schlechter Traum. Und dann hoffe ich, dass ich gleich aufwache. Manchmal, passieren Dinge, die ziehen mir den Boden unter den Füßen weg. Manchmal, will ich dann nicht wieder aufstehen. Und dann tue ich es doch. Einfach, weil mein Leben weitergeht und diese…

Seething

My anger just comes out of nowhere. Or so it seems. One minute I am talking to him and a blink of an eye later I am storming off, banging the door behind me for proper exit. What happened?! Some people – usually the ones closest to us – just push our buttons. Not just…

Bitterness

Hi, my name is Rhea and actually, I’m very old. Today was a beautiful day. Blue sky, too warm for a winter day, it felt like a spring kind-of-day. I have been feeling rather off the last week or so. First numb, then skiddish, and that turned into unease and restlessness. Then yesterday, I had…

I really ought to…

This is where I go when I feel the need to let go of „stuff“. I focus on whatever thought has been circling around in my head driving me crazy. Then I make a conscious decision to let go. I take a rock and throw it as far as I can. When the physical sensation…

Yoga 2: Mountain Pose

Come to the top of your mat. Feet parallel, heels slightly apart. Feel the surface of your mat underneath your feet. Lift your toes, spread them as wide as you can, slowly put them down one at a time, start with your little toes. Then press your big toe mounds into the mat. Feel your…

Finding Grace

Some conversations I have had over the last few weeks remind me again that acceptance can truly be empowering. I have written about asking for grace before. One of the – in my eyes anyway – profound virtues of individuals I find inspiring is their ability to find grace in the face of adversary. What…

Day 8: Grace

I have taken to asking for grace. Often my yoga teachers suggest to ask the universe for what I need to today. And I have taken to asking for grace. Having the grace to let go of things. Having the grace to accept what is. And having the grace to do so with love. I…

Day 5: Freedom

True freedom manifests itself in my own mind. So many boundaries are being imposed by what I think. What I believe to be true. What I think I should be doing. What I assume others expect me to do. Rarely by what reality presents. Here is to defying my own limits…