The pain is coming in waves… like contractions during birth…

These waves are crashing together over my head, drowning me… again and again…

I don’t know how to hold space for myself. Holding this pain, cradle it in my arms, so I can heal…

I find it overwhelming, trying to hold it all in instead… again and again…

So it remains open, raw, …

Then today, holding a pillow, dancing, I managed to keep moving with these waves… back and forth…

This time the pain remained lucid, flowing, weaving through me… subsiding after a while…

The next wave followed… another… again and again…

I kept moving, dancing, breathing…

Breathing, moving, dancing… again and again…

Breathing… in… out… letting go…

Letting my pain go… just breathing…

And dancing, and moving… again and again…

Just breathing, still dancing…

In and out… again and again…

Finally… Silence… Peace…

Still breathing…

In. Out.

As one. All one.

One breath.